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wow!!!!!!!!

it's been a long time since I last wrote on here..

Well it's ten minutes til three... and I still haven't slept yet. I dont like to sleep at home by myself, so instead I sit her and watch videos on Sahara one. You know there was once a time that I want to act and model soo much, but I never thought I was preety enough to do any of that, I just wanted to do it cause I liked it. that was random for me to say that out of no where... lol.

Well, I have been thinking about a lot of things lately, it seems as though that is the only thing I can do... I think about my life in 2 years... you know I will be 27.. wow and it makes me think where did all these years go.. adn why did they go by soo fast. I really didn't have a childhood that I can recall being my own. I had to grow up fast. I have a single mom and sisters... no Brothers... I mean I have my little brother, but he wasnt mine to begin with, he was said to be my brother by my dad. That's all that he ever wanted was a son. He got him however he did. But all the things that have happend along the way to get him into our lives, makes me think was it really worth it?

I love my little brother more then life itself, but I can care less for his mom and my dad in that matter. He shouldn't have to go through hell becasue he is a kid who had no fault in the matter of what my dad did to my mom.

 

I just hate men that are unfaithful, not loyal and cheat. It's upsetting and I belive because of that action my dad decided to take, it made it very hard for any of his daughters to accept a man being good. It's sad I know.

Well anyway I have worked hard my whole life ... when I was little I remember my mom and dad having two jobs and i would stay home with my older sister and we would have to make dinner and stay home alone cause mom and dad were saving to get a home for us. I was 6 when I first learned how to make roti... Im very happy for my mom being a strong women, especially then growing up .. indian were cruel ..well still are... but she managed and raised 4 Daughters in todays world with all the negitivity around. I love my mom and she is great.

My dad is still alive but I don't allow him to take part in my life... I live with my single mother and she deserves that much from me being her child.

Well.. I guess ill just end this at that.. and if i decide to add more I will... but til then, Satshriakle.

 

 

Raji

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Life cracks me up, it does.

Guys please answer this, actually whoever feels in the need to answer this go for it.

Why do guys get involved with a girl, and then later back out, but after all that still talk about her, even if you don't want to be with her, but she is trying to be involved with someone else, but she can't cause the guy had a really big mouth, so there for her life is miserable cause this guy is a dick?? why??

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So I have this problem, I have been dating this guy for three years, we loved each other at one point. To the point where it was unbearable to live without one another, but what do you do when the person your are with doesnt love you like he use to??? I dont know what it is, but our love isn't there. Maybe it's me. He just doesnt feel the same for me like he use to, but i miss that. He wants me and doesnt want me to be with anyone else, but how do you control that if the guy you want to marry, wont step up?? i wish i can have a straight head for just a second and put my self in a reality check. I need that. I need that security that he will never understand. Maybe I should just step off the plate and see how it goes. i dont know ... well see

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