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somebody take away all this pain and frustration, i don't wanna end up a screw up. I know thats the path im walkin right now, but thats where circumstances have forced me, and the world only wants to stand aside and laugh as i crumple beneath all these burdens which are invisible to them.

yet all you people in your decent lives stand there and question me like you know me, you dont know a damn thing about me, about my life,  about my anxieties, about my paranoia about my insecurities and my insomnia. My insecurities could eat me alive, they say night is for sleep, but for those who know pain for what it means will tell you that night is when you try to figure out who you really are, where you came from, where your'e going..when you walk as your lonely depressed self and no longer give a damn about what the world calls the "beautiful" things around you, and they notice that you're in your own world, they resort to calling you arrogant. 

I simply wish to be alone, if not alone then understood...why? why do they insist on making decisions for me, telling me what to do with my life...just leave me alone, i need to figure out a way to break free, i just don't know how i ended up like this...

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there comes a time when u gotta take out ur frustration on people who fucked u up....herez my list....some of them i still get on with...but u know when someone does or says somethin and u dont quite forget it....hell...i aint an anglel...but this is my blog and imma script watever the fuck i want....so sit ur ass down whatever part of the atlantic ur chillin in....

Nairobi, Kenya:

Kash: u fuckin skinny ass sack of shit...ur nothin but an envious double crossin 2 timin piece of crap ridin ur ugly ass "love shack"....the bitches u ride with are nothin but a bunch of street prowlers lookin to do a cigarettes for BJ swap....face it u moron...ur a waste...and even more pathetic callin urself a true friend...

Samina: Bitch...u know i never loved u...yet u go around spreadin rumours about me like im the newest anti-terror law on the block,...i only had a vodka with u that nite cos u were throwin a fit and i cudnt take the embarassment of u harassin me anymore...u ugly crack head...look at u...the gap between ur teeth is wider than the grand canyon...

Tashu: i dont even know why the fuck ur on this list Tash...ur the one chick i liked...still do...but just cos ur a fly ass biyaatch...u think u can prance around playin hard 2 get..ur not a fuckin nuclear warhead u bone head bitch...stop makin urself out to be like one....

i apologise for the language, but some steam u just gotta let off....

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